So Sleepy

I had a great idea for a blog.
It was really good.
It came to me as I lay in the dark thinking over my day and as I began to shape some thoughts into word and phrases... I fell asleep.
Now... as they say on Duck Dynasty..."It's gone!!" ... with a nice little drawl in the middle.
(I heard that Martha Stewart keeps a notebook by her bed and when she has a great idea, she writes it down... right away. Perhaps I should try that.)

Last night I set my alarm fully intending to get up and head to the gym. (I know... but I was gonna try.)
Ten minutes before the alarm was scheduled to fill my room with it's annoying persistence, I reached over and shut it off, burrowed back down into my amazingly warm and cozy flannel sheets, and fell asleep.

I am a reader.
I love books and I love to read them.
In the past I worked determinedly to carve out reading time from my crazy busy days.
These days time is more plentiful but 20 minutes of reading and ... yup... I am falling asleep. I literally read between dozing.

A new day begins and my mind is brimming with ideas and thoughts and intentions... but it seems that often, before I realize any of them, my day is done and I am back in bed falling asleep.

People talk about how God has taken them through "desert" times. I get that.
I have been there.
But I feel as if I am living in a perpetual "nap" time.
What is up with that??
It could be my age I suppose.
Or maybe I am sleep deprived.
Or lazy.
I know I am weary.
Life is hard.
People disappoint, expectations go unmet, family, friends, desires, needs all vie for priority seating in my life. It all makes me tired.
Somedays I just want to find a blanket to hide under. And stay there.
But life has always been hard. This is nothing new.

My desire for Heaven is stronger than it has ever been. I long to rest at the feet of My Jesus. And just stay there. (Gee... that does sound kind of lazy.)
But as I type, He has not called me home.
I remain here for a purpose. His purpose for my life.
And of all the commands and directives I can find in His Word, I am not finding a lot of encouragement to oversleep. Actually Proverbs is full of warnings to the "sluggard" and the sleepy.
But rest... that's another thing.
Rest and Peace are both found in Christ.
He calls me to trust, to have faith, to believe... to wait on Him.

So... I am not really sure where I am going with all of this. Or if there is some disguised lesson to be learned. (Please... feel free to let me know if I am missing something)
I may just be in a season.
Maybe I need to adjust some things... get back to a balance... go to bed earlier. (I did give up Dr. Pepper... and yes, I am still in mourning.)
Maybe I just need to be more disciplined and intentional.
I will continue to seek to do the things My Father puts in front of me to do... with whatever enthusiasm and energy I have.. looking to grasp His hand to pull me through.
And for now I guess I will just keep on, knowing that He Who began a good work in me will be faithful to complete it.
His way... in His time.

Today the sun is shining... which always helps... and I am feeling pretty perky.
Maybe I will go for for a walk...  followed by a nap. ;)


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